A Paradigm of Questions
If I disappeared today, you would not notice.
If I disappeared yesterday, you would not have cared.
I disappear tomorrow, your life not change.
Whether I stay or I go, you will be fine.
I’ll be a bit of dust in the wind, gone forever.
You will be okay.
Because I will be gone,
and that is probably what is best for you.
If I was lost, you would not find me.
You would not even go looking for me.
And if I left willingly? – God forbid I see you again,
because how outrageous would that be?
To see someone that I care about again – how rude!
Did you even notice me whilst I was here?
Did you listen rather than just hear me?
Did you see me instead of just looking?
Did you hug me or take my hand
instead of shrugging a casual Hi… at me in
the school hallway?
Were we ever really friends?
Did I change your life,
by even a fraction,
whilst you changed mine entirely?
Or was I just there to fill up a bit of temporary left over space?
Am I not needed anymo- who am I fucking kidding? –
I was never really needed..
I was a leaf blowing in the wind.
You picked me up off the ground…and
then you let me go…
found something better – I’ve heard and seen it all!
Just at least give me the goodbye that I deserve,
do not pretend that even though it meant
nothing to you,
that it also meant nothing to me.
Because to me –
it mean everything.